On not being sick...

[rwx]

So, for the first time in several years (probably since summer of 2002, when I left the playa with what eventually turned out to be gall bladder problems), I'm not ill. I'm not on any medications with crazy side effects, I'm not getting dizzy and/or nauseous with most meals, and I'm not constantly tired. It's a pretty good feeling. It's been about six months (right around hackers) since I had any problems with my side worse than the typical problems of someone who has had their gall bladder out.

What brings on this post? I'm more or less exiting the doctor-monitored part of my recovery as of today. Last week, I had a followon appointment where my stomach passed with flying colors, and this week was the end of the month-long test seeing if I could do without taking something regularly. I can't, whoops. (I speculate that the dehydration/moodiness at the end of last quarter was related, though.) It's also -- an apparent coincidence -- three years since I had my gall bladder out as of last week.

Not being sick is weird. I mean, I'm still relatively unhealthy and the simple mechanical processes of getting into health[1] will take several more months to come to conclusion (and the overall process of getting into the shape i want to be in long term will probably be about a year.) But not being ill is a great feeling.

Except, of course, for the fact that it is now time to do everything that i've been putting off until i got better. this will take me from roughly june 10 to mid-november when factored in with normal survival processes like working, writing, and socialization.

So that, in some ways, is stressful -- in some ways being chronically ill is a crutch, but its one that needs to be there. It's going to be weird to try to function without having a constantly looming reason not to do things. So that's exciting and a challenge at the same time.

More later, on mental changes in the last while.

[1] exercise, not having to eat a retarded diet to not be in pain, stuff like that.

Comments

[rwx.livejournal.com]

the gall bladder thing was just the start of a long period of interrelated wackinesses that are now thankfully over.

[xythen.livejournal.com]

I'm very thankful you're on the mend!

Although, *YOU* might think you've been holding back, you're probably the biggest social butterfly on my F-list. If this is you at ill health, I can only imagine the party making you'll be up to when you're feeling fine. :)

[rwx.livejournal.com]

I think the way that I've been handling a lot of things in the last while makes me seem like more of a social butterfly than I actually am. I do tend to go out a lot to support the things that my friends do, but a lot of that is a consequence of being single and having too much schoolwork to do to actually concentrate on anything other than that for any length of time.

i think i'll be out less overall, and i'll probably do more focused work now.